When I was a kid (I know.27 is super old now!), I remember kids went to school and played. It's just what you did if you were a kid back then. I really believe that's the way it should be for kids. Obviously as they get a bit older, you have to make sure that take care of their homework, chores, and obligations to teams if they are a part of any. Really, their lives shouldn't be that complicated though.
I hope to get back to the basics for my kids sakes. They deserve to just be kids for as long as possible even though our world today is making it harder and harder as we go.
On another note..Who knew being an adult would be so hard? I don't mean the everyday life stuff that everyone has to deal with. Having a roof, food, clothes, retirement, normal disagreements with your spouse/partner. Such things are expected. I mean all the extra baggage. Where did all the expectations come from? When did we start comparing and judging each other so harshly? Is it any wonder that mental illness has made a HUGE leap? We live in a world where *most people* have some sort of a mental illness. Depression is an enormous issue all over the world today. I don't know anyone who doesn't feel the pressure to be, look, and/or act a certain way every single day.
We come from an era where you may not get much help even if you seek help, because it is very likely that your therapist is just as screwed up as you are!
In fact, I'm starting to wonder if it's not really me that has all the issues. Maybe it's just the world in general that is making me think I am crazy.
If I hide in my house and avoid people, then I am depressed, but if I stand up for what I want and what I believe, then I am controlling and over-bearing.
We absolutely adore our landlords, so it is going to be so hard to leave them. We believe we have to do it for our health and that of our kids. The house is a 1910 farm house and we love the idea of it. Very cute and has lots of personality!
The down side is no insulation, old windows, old duct work, only an old furnace to heat it. We are worried that it is blowing a lot of dust and dirt around and is possibly making us and keeping us sick. Not to mention possible lead paint and several other concerns.
Sadly we will be giving up a lot of land, of course our wonderful landlords, and incredibly low rent.
Praying God brings us a house that is perfect and healthy for us...and that we can afford it!
It often seems to run together. The same stuff day after day after year. I often can't remember what I did yesterday and what was the day before.
I guess that's why it still shocks me when I get those moments of clarity. You know the ones when something happens or your kid does something that makes you stop and really focus. It's in that moment that no matter what is making your life crappy, you can just smile and remember why you do what you do and put up with all the bullshit.
I had one of those today. It was so refreshing! My daughter walked up and was jabbering at me like usual except this time I really stopped and listened to her. She is incredibly smart and has a huge vocabulary for her age. She told me "Mommy, I have pretty hair. Baby Trace is hitting Homer on Mommy's shirt. Buba is making the airplane crash." I studied her gorgeous blue eyes and when she noticed me looking, she got this huge satisfied grin on her face and blushed.
It makes me wonder what other amazing things I miss her saying when I am too busy with life to listen. Sometimes I wish I could film them 24hrs a day and go back and watch it all later to see what I missed.